Yup same here, major health anxiety and also death anxiety. I also cannot get my head around the fact that people, and myself, just die. All that life lived gone. I really hope we live on in some way. That’s the only thing that VERY minorly helps me
Death is a very hard topic to get our heads around. It is a very hard concept. I haven't had someone who I have felt super close to pass away and I sometimes worry what it is going to be like when that happens. Could this be PTSD in a sense, because you had the trauma of the death before you had your baby and now you have this new life, which is beautiful but alongside that you have the fear. Maybe keep at the counselling. Reach out to loved ones. Write down things and journal maybe xx
No advice, but I’m exactly the same, I think about it all the time. I always think something bad is bound to happen to me, my baby, partner or family sometime soon. Its horrible