@Laura it’s still just extremely hard my husband and I’ve been together almost 5 years
I know! Hey I’ve got double that and I still have hard times too! I just feel like over the last year or two the good days started out-numbering the bad ones…it’ll come if you keep at it. Keep it simple. Keep it healthy. Focus on happy and stay self aware.
It is hard, because you feel like you’re always just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I used to be afraid to let myself get too happy because I felt like, tomorrow I could wake up and it’s gonna disappear. Hell change and it’ll go to shit. But I’ve been with my husband for 10 total years now, 6 of them we’ve been married. I’m starting to feel like I can let myself settle in and accept this is just my life and it’s nice and I trust he is who I think he is… Unsure if that helps. But so happy you found someone worthy of your love now and hope you can eventually let yourself be happy too!