Need some kindness, struggling :(

I have had a really awful 2024 but am trying to be optimistic that 2025 will be better with the arrival of my baby. Here’s what happened in a nutshell: Late 2023 I lost a pregnancy and was abandoned by my partner who was also treating me really badly and abusively due to the shock of the pregnancy and not feeling ready etc. When I told my very religious family they abandoned me because I was not married to the father. They were happy I lost the baby and rubbed it in my face. I would have loved to be married it wasn’t my choice he wasn’t ready and it just happened, but they were still insensitive about it. I spent time in the hospital grieving and dealing with mental health after that. I was harassed and bullied by them during this time and the police were useless in helping. After that as much as I tried to hold on to my job I was so distressed I had to take sick leave and embarrass myself because through the process of applying for time off my boss sorta clued in to my personal business as I had to open up a bit in order to have time off approved, which made me feel like a total loser. Fast forward a bit and this is my second pregnancy and thankfully it is going smoothly baby wise but my mood has been up and down being estranged by family and to top it off I am no longer with the father as it didn’t work out, so I’m doing this all on my own. I’m going to make sure I do my best for my baby and am trying to stay strong but I have had such a crazy year and I’m sick of everyone minimizing my feelings when I try to open up, just need some kind words and love, I don’t have anyone like close friends or family so it’s really hard :(