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I would love a week long break away from everyone. I would love to drink again. I would love to be happy. I would love to not get so mad at the kids I want to leave the house. I don't spank them because when I get mad I worry that if I start I wont stop. I don't like how I am anymore. I get set off so easily. I'm not the same person I was when the older kids where little and I worry about hurting the kids when I get mad now.
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How old are they? Not that that matters because I think that hitting is never okay. My sister hits her children and their (2)& (5). I go no contact with her as she’s an abusive mother and lets her man hit them too. Your child will likely learn and think it’s okay to hit people when their upset as your doing it to them. When my sisters kids go to school she’s fucked because if the teachers pick up on this CPS will be involved. As a 2 and 5 year old they know WAY too much. Just walk to another room when ur mad and scream into a pillow or something. They will also pick up on name calling so don’t do that either.

Your feminine soul is calling out to you to fulfil her. You might be overstimulated, under-appreciated, bored….all work and no play. We need fun! Motherhood can be such a boring place especially when we are sacrificing everything and putting everyone’s needs ahead of our needs. When we are depleted and pouring out of an empty cup, our kids get “bled” on when they’re not the ones who “cut us”. You need to find a way to get that break, to find even one morsel of happiness. Your anger is most likely a cover for something else… sadness maybe.

Ahh, give yourself grace. I'm glad you're not hitting. I grew up with a reactive mom. She hit me all the time. I learned to simply shut off. Have no emotions, no thoughts. I'm not here to judge you. But she was with a man who didn't support her. My dad was loving but he was in love with women he made contact with. She worked a lot. And he did the bare minimum. That's what she tolerated. Therefore, she was bitter and angry all the time. I'd pray she would work. I couldn't stand her. When I had my daughter, I didn't want to be like her. I read a lot of parenting books. The best one I've read is: good inside. Part of change is acknowledgment. Seems like you are their now act, Mama. You got this.

I have to say. I feel a lot of anger right now too. I have a migraine at the same time. My blood pressure is probably high too.

@Marie Well put.

@Marie the only break I get is when I go to bed at night and I don’t even sleep all night some nights because my kids still like to wake up

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