Anyone else struggling to find their spark ?
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@Marilyn this was so beautifully said and I’m definitely going to hold your words with me. I hope you have a beautiful and safe labor! It really is everything. It’s so hard but so beautiful. Being a mom is incredible 🤍
Yes I’m in the same boat. Really strange feeling. I’m 8 months post partum, love my little boy so much but I miss the old me so much too…
I got my spark back after 2 years of being without it.. it’s been a year and a half since I’ve gotten it back now and I’m so happy!
There’s this great analogy I heard about flamingos and motherhood. When flamingos first hatch their young they lose all their pink color because they are giving everything to that new little baby. After a while they slowly start to get their pink back as their hatchling can do more and more for themselves. We all get our pink back eventually 💕 🦩 It may be a different shade than it used to be before having a kid but it does come back.
I don’t know if you have access to therapy but it’s helpful if you think you may have PPD. One this I was told was there’s a difference between doing something that makes you feel happy and something that makes you fulfilled. You may feel happy to doom scroll and rot in bed to turn your brain off. But do you feel fulfilled after? If not, then do something that you find fulfillment in.
I can’t yet relate. I’m being induced in 2 days. But I just this moment finished watching the movie Nightbitch and it’s kind of about what you’re saying. The duality of accepting the awesomeness of the new version of you as a mother while mourning the old version and wondering if that girl is dead and gone or if you are evolving. I watched with my mom and it was powerful to see her react to it and know that our mothers and our mothers mothers experienced this death of self. I don’t have any advice because like I said I haven’t been through it but I think all these feelings are part of an incredibly profound, complex journey. You are the person in those photos, but also the one you see in the mirror.