Feeling Overwhelmed

Hoping I am not alone. Lately I have been feeling absolutely exhausted with motherhood, I adore my little boy, it's a joy to see him grow and have him little personality come through a little more every day but jesus I am feeling so overwhelmed recently. Since Christmas it feels like all I've dealt with is colds, chest infections, teething, sleep regressions, weaning stresses and tummy bugs. It's just been a lot and although my partner is really involved when he comes home from work until bedtime, the majority of the childcare lands on me and quite literally I can't remember the last time I left the house on my own without baby or my partner and it's starting to feel a little suffocating. However in couple of occasions where I have had a little time to myself I'm always feeling guilty about leaving my baby, it's like I can't win or relax, even when my baby has gone to bed, I am on edge, thinking that he might wake up and need me as he doesn't yet sleep through the night (7 months old and i have tried everything 😭). I'm just feeling so tired, overwhelmed and a little touched out. My baby has started crying whenever I don't give him attention, leave the room or sometimes when I stop looking and interacting with him when he's in his bouncer etc. Is anyone else finding this stage of motherhood extremely demanding and exhausting? I hope I'm not alone in this, I am starting to worry that I'm not a very good mother. Despite dreaming of being a mum my entire adult life. Just hoping others can relate and I can feel a little less lonely in these feelings.