Starting to resent my boyfriend.

This is a bit of a vent but I’m struggling to cope, my partner is not allowed to work or study in the uk (due to his immigration status) so he is not allowed to make any kind of money (was doing little cash in hand jobs before) and he recently got in trouble again with the police (not his fault it was more a wrong place wrong time situation) his friend got him involved in and because my bf had priors it went against him I just feel like my life’s just now bombarded with his problems as his been put on tag and it’s set to my house as his dad told police he doesn’t live at his anymore so my bf said my house to avoid being arrested. I love my bf so of course I’d help but it’s becoming a lot because I also still live at home and I just think it’s a lot of stress now having a extra person in the house my mom has to provide for and i have to provide for I just feel like a burden on my family. He does help around the house and does get along well with my family but yh I know he feels like a burden as well that he’s unable to provide & be the man he wants too and that’s basically what’s keeping me going helping him I feel sorry for him but it’s like now I’m involved in his stuff (police searching my house, police asking me to do interviews) it’s just a lot whilst pregnant & because I’m currently unemployed due to my pregnancy money is low! And it’s on me to figure out how to make ends meet My mom takes him to the station 3x a week to sign on for his bail conditions & i just feel embarrassed this is my life now you know Our relationship is deteriorating too it just feels like we’re coexisting and I’m just becoming a place for him to stay. I feel like I’m falling out of love with him but he’s not really helping that as he’s no longer being romantic with me and showing me he loves & cares for me and I just be thinking that’s the least he can do you know?? Like I get he’s having a hard time because of his situation but what about me?? (Somedays he’ll kiss me and give me hugs but becoming rare now) I just feel helpless. I know he will be a great father though and will look after our baby well but it’s just the financial burden will be all on me, I will have to be the one to figure out living arrangements as I’m not trying to stay at my moms longer than a year as the baby gets older that’s too many people in the one house & how can we have a future if it’s not guaranteed he’ll be able to even stay in the country or at risk of going to jail
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Fyi before anyone says why did I date him in the first place, when we first started talking and during our first year together he never had no problems with police/immigration so I wasn’t aware the full extent of his situation, and he was doing a cash in hand job so he was earning money at the time it’s the last 9mnths since I’ve been pregnant that all this has come to light

To be honest it sounds like he is trying to do all the right things, I just think it’s that you’re spending too much time with each other that’s causing the issue. Things like this happen in these sort of circumstances and like you e said you do love him, I think you need to stop feeling the over baring reaction of resentment towards him because it’ll cause way too much of a rift and try to think about the positives, like how good he is being around the house and that he is overall being a good bloke. Unless there are less people in th house or you had more space there isn’t much that can be done whilst he is wearing a tag

On top of what @Kathryn said the stress and restrictions of it all is surely taking a toll on his mental health as well as yours whilst being pregnant. Would this all feel the same if he wasn’t on tag or if he was working? It sounds like no. Hopefully he doesn’t have much longer on tag and can get back to some form of income soon. Idk how it is over there but if you can’t* work due to pregnancy ask your doctor for temporary disability. See if he can find a wfh job that’s based elsewhere therefore his money is coming from another country or you can wfh. I’m sorry about the situation. Also I’d talk to him about your feelings regarding the lessened intimacy and roommate status

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