I hate my life

It’s ok. I am fed up with everything too. I have a week off work next week. I plan on getting a massage, going to take a free yoga or Zumba class, sweat it out in the sauna at that free trial class at harbor fitness next week, possibly have dinner with my friend and plan other outings with my family. I think when we are in this state, it’s great to just practice mindfulness, for me it’s like telling the world to go f itself. lol. Seriously! I am also going to a violin concerta tonight. It’s like a candle lit one so hoping it will ease my stress. I love the sound the violin makes. It’s short. It’s just an hour of not being active. I think I can make it. Then it’s dinner with my friend. At times when we feel this way, it’s best to set sometime alone doing something relaxing. Pedi, mani, getting hair done at the salon, massages, working out at the gym. Sweating off after a workout feels great too.

You can also try therapy but it doesn’t always release the pressure build up in your chest. I get so stressed out that my chest and stomach hurts sometimes. You are not alone. I doubt I am the only one who’s so done with everything. We will make it

Thank you so much for posting this. You helped me a lot! At least I know I am not alone

I feel this post in my soul, in fact I told my partner today if it weren't for the kids I would have killed myself by now. Life has been exceptionally hard for the last year, I've lost all the financial stability and independence I'd spent 7 years building for myself and kids. We've moved away from my entire support system (which is very small as it is) and I physically cannot move us back because I've got a 3 month old, no job, no savings and rent are sky high, letting agents want a guarantor I can't provide the list never ends... I feel like I'm living on autopilot, just doing what is required of me and nothing more. The only joy I get is from my kids, like you. It's hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel right now. My inbox is open if you want to use it

When I read this, it’s almost as if I wrote it. This is me 100%! I have no advice cause I am stuck as well, but know you aren’t alone. I am going to try therapy and I have picked up a productive hobby which has helped a bit.

@Kitty that looks lovely and so relaxing. I'm glad you enjoyed yourself ❤️

I appreciate you sharing what most are too scared to admit. It really resignates with me, the lack of an actual life and the constant just being a mum makes you feel lost, always putting others above yourself and becoming stuck in that cycle of never ending responsibility. It's f***ING hard, we all make mistakes and we are only human it's okay to make them 💯 I get just do what needs to be done losing yourself in the process adds to the burden. Il be honest with you and admit if it wasn't for my kids I wouldn't be here right now either. I have learnt that you Need to put you 1st just switch off and do something for you, even if it is only 20mins might not seem like a long time to start but it can be built on bit by bit. Be kinder to yourself and realise how strong you are for having the courage to write it down and despite how you're feeling your still putting your kid 1st, that is powerful in itself. I'm here if you want to inbox me. Sending 🤗

Thanks a lot! Friday is finally over. I am so relieved. My body aches and I am exhausted. I scored a great deal with lobster tails and strip steaks so we are cooking that tomorrow and I plan on doing Zumba at home with YouTube! Last time by 20 mins, I almost quit but I charged on and finished the 30 mins. I was dripping sweat and out of breath. It was amazing! I can’t wait until that trial Zumba class on Thursday. Thanks for responding. I hope you get to make time for yourself even if it’s just taking a bubble bath and reading with scented candles. I used to do that. Now I just read novels and Christian stuff.