I'm needing advice and help for safe delivery of my rainbow baby

Still praying this will stick I'm doing ok this time ( I considered myself the first time mom ) As the other pregnancies didn't do so well but I need help I'm low income, first-time mom to be. I have so much anxiety this pregnancy has been really rough so far I've been in and out of the hospitals with (HG) and they are awful I really don't like the way the hospitals treat me or my partner I'm so terrified of having to go to a hospital to deliver my baby I want something calm that I feel in control of I so desperately need this birth center I was recommended to but I can't afford there fees I'm struggling with low income I can Barely afford rent currently Me and my partner are looking for jobs I lost my job last month From being in the hospital too many days and now I'm Seriously struggling just to afford to eat I have Wic but thanks to my mother in law we are not qualified for ebt assistance I'm trying to get all the assistance I can but so far haven't found much help The days keep going by Without stability housing proper food I have no baby items yet I need help please I'm scared I'm so desperate any advice or possibly helping reach the goal so I can be a patient at the birth center and not have a traumatic birth I just want a waterbirth but for there care it's $7,000 I'm making about $700 a month currently and 400-500 is going to bills at least sometime I have nothing to survive on I can't Even afford to get our vehicle fixed so I can make my appointments We are doing everything we can but we are scared of upcoming baby day and I need support so bad rn this is getting too much for me mentally