Doubting my ability to be a mother
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I’ve also just seen you struggle with health and birth anxiety. So did I to an extent and in the end I opted for an elective c section. A lot of people also want to look into hypnobirthing so that might also be something that interests you to try and ease your anxiety but there’s absolutely no shame in opting for the surgery. It’s your legal right in England.
If this is your first pregnancy & you're very early on, then chances are you won't know what you're looking for🤷🏼♀️ As your pregnancy progresses, you will instinctly know &/or, start to notice patterns in movement. You're not being ignorant or stupid at all, I've been there myself with my first pregnancy & I was completely clueless on what to expect. You can't be expected to know what something feels like if you've never experienced those things before. I hope that this makes sense.
Firstly you’re sooo early on so you are yet to gain all the experience you need! When baby starts booting you from the inside and you can see the lump of their little foot swipe across your belly you definitely notice when they haven’t moved for a while! When my son was born I didn’t even know how to change a nappy as i’m the first of my friends to have a baby and not that close with the relatives that did. You learn as you go! You know your little ones cry, it sounds louder, higher pitch or lasts longer when there’s something wrong, and then you trial and error till you figure out how to make them feel better. Then you start to associate the cry with what they want (they definitely fake cry too!) the worry is just a natural instinct that will kick in once they’re here, but some worry far less than others! My MIL doesn’t worry about anything and had a much more chilled approach to parenting, she probably thinks i’m insane, but all her kids are great!
@Skye thankyou so so much 🥹🩷
@Skye i’ve thought about it definitely, not to sound selfish but i just want whatever is safest for me, ofcourse i want the baby to be safest too, just i want to feel the most comfortable so i feel like either the section, or an epidural definitely! xx
@Sarah🦄 thankyou so much it makes complete sense!
@remy you’re welcome! And congratulations I’m sure you’ll be a great mum! 🩷
@Lor awww thankyou so much! yeah i feel like i already know it’s just going to be a motherly instinct that kicks in but im just doubting that it will happen to me, but im sure that happens to all first time mums🤣
@remy I honestly was on the bench until I was about 35 weeks when I chose the section. I’m only 5ft tall and was about 8 stone when I got pregnant. I knew for a fact my son would end up stuck or something and I wouldn’t want a traumatic birth like that. So I chose section and loved it! The recovery was a bit rough the first week but I know I recovered better than I would’ve. Do what you need to do for yourself and baba! Xx
@remy honestly it will, in my first pregnancy I found it difficult to connect to my little one, it wasn’t until I heard his first cry (I had a Csection too) I cried tears of shock as I suddenly realised he was real and had been all along, he’s been my bestie ever since! It’s okay to feel every way you’re feeling right up to the birth and beyond, we’re all just trying our best and learning as we go x
Antenatal classes can be really useful for finding out a bit more information once you are pregnant. Your hospital will probably offer one, the. You can book through other providers like nct or do online ones, we did some with the honest midwife which were really useful x
You’re not stupid or ignorant don’t be daft! Reduced movement is just something you start to notice when you’re a bit further along if you’re only 6 weeks now! When kicks get much stronger you’ll know when baby is in a pattern. Safe sleeping is something that you can look at online. The NHS has resources, the Lullaby Trust is another great resource. It’d also be worth looking into safe cosleeping even if you don’t plan to, just to make sure you’re aware. Nobody knows anything without learning it first. If you’re interested in babywearing, car seat safety and sleep information then join the FB groups ‘Babywearing UK’, ‘Car Seat Safety UK’, and ‘The Beyond Sleep Training Project’. You will pick up SO much info before baby is here!