have you felt like this before??? lets talk about sex 😂😂

I’ve been so disinterested in sex lately which is weird for me. But the other day I randomly watched porn and saw this video I can’t get out of my head. It was so passionate and sensual yet rough. the chemistry was crazy, he was so attentive and kept calling her perfect and beautiful talking her through it. kissing and touching her everywhere 😍😍😍 And I realized… thats why I’m so turned off from sex. Cause it’s not like that video!!! my bd and I hate each other but still have sex but it’s so robotic. there’s no love, no passion, no care. I feel like a sex doll. he doesn’t kiss me during, doesn’t even wanna make eye contact cause its “awkward”. no build up. just “turn around”. it’s just trash and I’m over it. Only 1 man ever did me like that video and now I’m feening for him 😩😩 we were just friends but our connection was so deep and he worshipped me in bed. he changed his number so I had to dm him on instagram which he barely uses. I hope he sees it soon and I know for a fact he’ll rush to see me have any of y’all experienced this need to be touched but with passion and intimacy?? I feel like I’m gonna fall apart I can’t stop thinking about it and how it’d solve all my problems to be did just like that one video helpp 😂😂😩😩😩