I get it, it gets lonely and doing the same tasks on repeat can even get depressing. I left my BD on 19th Jan and as much as I’m craving him I haven’t gone back even tho he’s said anything he can to convince me to go back. I understand, we as women want to keep our families together but sometimes you can’t hold on to something that’s cracked in to pieces and is irreparable :/
listen to the woman in the comments i promise it’s not worth it & uoure hurting your own self especially if you’re telling yourself you can handle the consequences, phew nooo our emotional selfs can’t especially when we’ll have nobody to blame but ourselves. we don’t want shame to come about especially we’re pregnant & you need to focus on you & your baby. i wish i would’ve listened but even in my disobedience God helped work things out for my/ our good & he always will but yes it gets easier the more you stop because you’ll be putting your identity into other things rather than relying on him to make you feel.
Please stop its not worth it. He called it off with you, he's already shown you how he truly feels by doing that and sleeping with him to convince yourself he still cares doesn't mean he does in the way you want. He might still care in a way but not enough to want to continue the relationship and men like sex and so many times they're willing to have sex with someone they ended it with just because they can. You can't get the closure and move on if you keep doing this and you really are just dragging out the hurt especially if you're getting hope from it. It might feel better in the moment but in the long run it never does I've been here twice and have promised myself I never will again because to them it was just sex and to me it was hope