Idk

I just need to vent 😭 I guess it’s true what they say - when you stop trying it happens. I’ve been ttc for about 1.5 years and recently decided to give up. I decided that because I wanted to focus on my health and lose some weight… also because I stopped feeling happy in my relationship. I was just on the verge of wanting to end things. Girl, I’m so SCARED 😭😭 this genuinely took me by surprise. I’ve cried so many times over a negative test, but now seeing this positive omfg i want to bawl. I finally accepted that it would just be me and my son for a little while. I have had 2 miscarriages, and this line kind of seems like it’s not the darkest it should be, so idk but I just need to let it out because I’m not at all ready to talk to my bf.