Nursery

Mine started today and I've been in a state all morning, feel terrible. They do get used to it and start enjoying it so I'm told. Feel free to message me if you'd like to chat. Xxx

Just the thought of it alone made me have a breakdown the other night, I’ve been lucky and I got to put off thinking about it but now I know it’s right for her and I want to work and get what ever I am left, back. It’s like saying to me “ oh we’re going to take out your heart today, that okay ? “ No, it’s not :( I can’t even imagine how it’s going to be. It’s literally just me and her and our bond is unreal. My life is to protect her, how on earth can I do that from a distance. It’s so scary. My sisters boy is nearly 3 and she promised me it does get easier ❤️ it’s also important to find yourself again. I hated that idea, still do. Don’t want to be anything other than her mum! But I have truly lost myself. But I live for her. My mum guilt is insane. Even over such silly things. I’m sending you so much love for next week. You’re already far more brave than I am ! Xx

My daughter has gone to nursery since November. It was one of the worst feelings I've ever had. She was upset at drop off for a good few weeks. I felt unimaginable guilt. Then all of sudden she wasn't upset any more. She has the biggest smile now when I drop her off with her key worker who she loves. She does so many fun activities and I get adorable pictures of her enjoying herself. I really think it is going to be great for her socialisation and education. That doesn't mean the guilt has gone away, far from it, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, hopefully it won't be too long before your child loves going and you get lovely pics of all the fun activities theyre getting up to. You're a great mum. You got this.

@Sarah that’s beautifully put. I really needed to read something like this. Just feel like my heart refuses to accept the thought of it let alone doing it. I know she’ll love it. I can’t hold her back :( xx

@Georgina it's so normal to feel that way!! Unfortunately (personally) the guilt hasn't gone away but for me it's become more manageable, I think once it's all done and you're in your routine it will get infinitely easier. The unknown is scary. Good luck!

@Rumi Thank you so much, you’re a great mum and very brave ❤️ xx

@Georgina I feel exactly the same, it’s a mix of feelings, only wanting to be his mum and wanting to be myself again. I feel bad for only thinking about it. You’re also very brave and strong. With the time hopefully everything gets “easier”. Sending lots of love ❤️ x

@Sarah Oh my god you made me cry, thank you so so much. I needed to read this. ❤️❤️❤️ xx

My LG started last Friday. She had previously had two settling in sessions. Your nursery should offer you at least two of these just to help her on her first day. I hope they have? Like the others have said, it's hard the first few weeks, but I have been assured it does get easier. I know she's gonna get so much out of it aswel. More than what I can offer just being at home with me every single day. There's only so many baby clubs and soft plays you can take them too. Try to not thing of it as just nursery but it's a fun place where she's gonna make friends and have fun! My Mum was a SAHM but even I was sent off to Playgroup couple days a week from 18months to interact with other babies and probably give my Mum a break. 🤣 Your not a bad mum at all and shouldn't feel an ounce of guilt. Your providing for your family ❤️