Feeling like a bad mum

I think it can be quite normal. On social media or to friends I probably look like I've got everything nailed, but the reality is that for the past 3-4 weeks my 2 year old has been a nightmare with me, just me. He comes out of nursery all smiles and throws himself on the floor at the sight of me, he refuses to let me put him in the car, he refuses to let me change him and kicks out at me. The other day my partner came out of the shower in the morning and found me and my toddler crying on his bedroom floor because I just would not let me near him and we needed to get ready for work and nursery. My partner says it's not me, but I swear it is 😩

Its natural to have these feelings and I think all parents have them, it's easy to look at someone's post on facebook or a family in the park and think they've got there shit together but realistically were all having the same shitty battles. Children are most comfortable with their main care givers, that's why all the big emotions come out with us. They can be happy all day and then the moment they see us all those emotions they've kept in come spilling out. It doesn't make it any easier to deal with but we're their safe space.

I've recently found that learning about different emotions and doing the silly faces whilst talking about them and when those emotions start spilling out it helps, not always but we're getting there. She currently hates anything that's a transition, getting dressed, going downstairs, getting in the car etc. It's been a nightmare and I feel like I'm at my witts end with it, constantly crying heavily pregnant tho so it doesn't help. We have all these battles each day and nobody else sees them, then she's a little angel on daddy's days off and I feel crazily annoyed. You've got this, you're little one loves you and feels safe to show off big emotions around you 🥰