Bad mom

First time mom here to an 11 week old preemie. She just got home 4 days ago. Usually I am a very light sleeper to the point I can hear my boyfriend get up to go to the bathroom. I’ve been doing her morning and late night feeds and he helps with a couple during the day. She apparently cried for really hard and I didn’t realize it. I even set an alarm to wake up at 5am to feed her but I slept past it and it was 5:15am. Idk how long she’s been crying for. The other day I was laying next to her taking a selfie together and I also accidentally dropped my phone of her face and she cried so loud. I feel so bad. I feel like I’m not meant to be a mom. I thought I was going to be an amazing mom considering it’s been my dream to have kids since I was a kid. But at this rate I’m afraid she’s not getting what she needs. Now I put her down to sleep 40min ago and I’m scared to go to bed thinking I might not hear her crying again :( is this feeling normal?
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It’s such a huge adjustment in those first few weeks, give yourself some grace, you’re all learning how to navigate this. Your baby will be totally fine, even if they cry for a bit without you hearing. But they need a mama who keeps showing up knowing she’s getting better every day and being their caretaker. You got this

You will get adjusted in no time. Is she in the same room as you? I would bet it wasn’t more than a minute or two that she cried if she was in the same room as you. As for the phone, I did it twice in the beginning as well bc we’re constantly holding the little creatures - it’s bound to happen since there’s not much else we can do when they’re little potato’s. I just bought a case with a loop on the back bc I felt so bad when I hurt hers. These little things don’t define your worth or being a mom. It’s such a shock to your system all these changes happening.

Things happen girly! It doesn’t make you a bad mom! Or mean you aren’t supposed to be a mom. When I had my first, I also felt that way. I couldn’t produce milk for him and I felt so shitty. But a fed baby is a happy baby regardless of how they are fed. I have a 2 year old, a 12 week old and I work full time. There are times I don’t hear my daughter wake up to feed. You are a good mama! Your body has been through a lot, give yourself time!

Bring her in your room with you it will be easier that way for the first few months 🥰 and I’ve done it a time or two it doesn’t make you a bad mom thinks will slowly get better and easier

It’s okay everyone makes errors! That’s normal! You’re a great mom because you care and want to do right by her! Forgive yourself for the small mistakes. You’re doing 100 things right each day by loving her!

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