Maybe that would at least get you started talking to someone. It's so hard, but please know you're not alone.
I completely understand how you feel 💔 It’s very difficult because we live in a wretched world with cruel unkind people that we face everyday which makes it very hard to feel happy. Could you share a bit more about you? Are you from the Uk? Are you a single mum, do you have close family that support you? How many kids do you have? xx
Have you tried any of the places that offer telehealth appointments?