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I feel so lost

My partner and I have a 7 week old baby, he’s not been here much since my son was born due to recently purchasing a gritting business. The money is such a help for us, but Ive felt so incredibly alone. My family aren’t really bothered and I rarely hear from anyone, I have one friend who checks in sometimes but that’s it. I think I’m suffering from post natal depression quite badly, I’ve had some nasty thoughts. But I don’t want to tell my partner as he won’t be able to just stop running his business and it will only stress him out. It’s at the point now where I can’t kiss him or even let him hug me without me feeling… awkward and ashamed. It doesn’t help that I feel completely alienated from my own body. I hate myself completely. He tries to show me affection and I shut him down as i just can’t even begin to comprehend feeling any other way than sad or angry. I don’t know what to do. I also have a 9 year old who I try so hard to hide this side of me from. I’m worried about going to the GP, the referral times for counselling are a joke and I’ve been on different anti depressants before and never had a good experience with them. Has anyone else been in a similar situation? What should I do?

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Please speak to your GP xx

Hey momma, it doesn't hurt to ask for help! Reach out to your doctor, and talk to your husband. ❤️

In addition to talking to your GP and husband, when you're having a bad moment, please call a hotline. They may be able to help you manage those thoughts in the moment, and keep you from doing something awful.

Tell your husband how you are feeling. I know you don't want to stress him, but that's what a partner is for, to help carry heavy burdens. Also, please do reach out to your doc. Wait times are awful, but they aren't going to get any shorter. And there are resources out there, online and inperson groups for support.

Feel free to message me I was the exact same speak to your gp also get some support you’ve got this Mumma always here for a chat

I am in a similar situation, but honestly talking about it will lighten your load like you wouldn't believe. I am currently seeing 2 psychs and would be lost without them. Yes, waiting times between sessions can be difficult, but I find listening to podcasts episodes and reading books in the interim helpful (particularly those relevant to what you're going through). Don't feel bad to stress your partner out...it is his job to emotionally support you, stressful business or not. Not adequately communicating will only make your relationship deteriorate more, and your feelings of resentment grow.

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