Baby blues or PPD?

I am a first time mum to a 10 day old baby boy. All through my pregnancy I felt so calm, and excited to meet him. I kept waiting for the nerves and anxiety to come but they never did. When he was born I experienced the love at first sight, I couldn’t believe he was here and ours, but since returning from the hospital and in the full throes of sleep deprivation, I am questioning my bond with him and comparing myself to everyone else experiencing this really natural, can’t take their eyes off baby kind of love. I’m feeling so guilty, I cry most days because I never imagined I would ever question my connection / bond with him. It’s like he’s a little stranger living in the house who I struggle to communicate with. I am functioning fully physically ie breast feeding, being an attentive mum; but I just feel emotionally really empty even though I have so much to be happy for… I am going to speak to my midwife and health visitor this week to let them know how I’m feeling. I’m fortunate to have an amazing partner who is very reassuring and tells me to be patient and kind to myself. I guess I’m just hoping I’m not alone in this situation, and it does get better?!
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I was like this. I kept thinking it was ppd and was considering going to the gp. However, by day 16 I was fine again. They say if it lasts longer than two weeks then to seek help as it’s probably not baby blues. Speak to the midwife and health visitor and see what they say Do you have people to reach out too? Make it known that you need some extra support. It takes a village x

I went through this, mine lasted a while. From birth, I was too exhausted to have a connection but I knew I was gonna protect him. I struggled in the first few weeks, I would cry for no reason at all, my son felt like a stranger, I felt alone even when I was occupied looking after him, I was emotionally and physically drained. I spoke to my HV about it and she suggested getting out there, baby groups and all that, wanted referring me for some talking therapy but I asked to hold on. There’s no denying that it is tough especially as first time moms, not knowing what to expect….. but as they grow and begin to coo and interact more with you, the love grows and deepens and you no longer see them as a stranger but a part of you…… I promise you, the love comes and it’s pure and beautiful. You’ll be able to play with your baby and even when you’re so sleep deprived, you’ll love up on your baby. Still speak to your MW and HV. Above all show yourself grace. 🫂🫂🫂

I never experienced that "instant love" and I blamed myself so much for it. What you're going through is absolutely completely normal x

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