Fed up

Im fed up with my son father other baby mama speaking for him I'm fed up with her telling me I'm not a real mother what's a defention of a real mother I'm fed up with her saying I'm keeping the baby away from him when he literally ghosted his son in July and decided to pop up after Christmas trying to take him to there house I told him no we can meet at a restaurant so the baby can get used to him again she told me no because they don't trust me in a public place I'm fed up with her saying Im running away from child support when I put him on child support and I haven't been served yet I'm fed up with her saying I have mental issues if I have mental issues why isn't he trying to get his son from me if my mental issues are that bad I'm fed up with him being inconsistent I'm fed up with the only parent providing for my son like I was the only one who made him and btw the way he's not on the birth certificate I don't feel comfortable with letting my son go anywhere with him when he's been gone for months no contact nothing am I wrong I just want to get over this I wish he would just be man and speak for himself because I haven't heard him say anything it's all her talking