Need some advice

Hello mamas! I just need some advice, maybe some validation so I don’t feel so alone. Before I got pregnant, my husband and I thought I was dealing with some hormone deficiencies or something because I’ve been struggling with a few things. I went and saw a doctor about it and was in the process of getting some testing done when I found out I was pregnant with this beautiful baby girl. I’m now 20 weeks and still struggling with some things because I can’t do any form of hormone replacements or medications while I’m pregnant. Anyway, my husband and I seem to be arguing all the time and I’m so tired of it. It’s either him who’s elevated or me. Or both of us. I’m not perfect in this, I’m struggling with controlling my anger (though I’ve never yelled, thrown things, or called names, I just get really angry really quickly) and struggles controlling my anxiety about anything and everything. I feel like I can’t do anything right at all, not with being a wife, or being a mother, or even just being a human being. I am also feeling so overwhelmed, touched out, everyone needs something or wants to be you ch ed or touch me, and I just can’t stand my husband (in the sense that I don’t want to be intimate, it hurts so badly when we are and I cramp for up to 12 hours afterward). I know the sense of not being able to stand your husband is a common pregnancy symptom but what can I do about this? He feels like I don’t want anything to do with him and I hate him feeling that way. Are there any books or resources I can read that might help? I’ll be speaking with my doctor this Wednesday during our appointment about all of this but need some advice from others going through the same thing. No judgement from anyone, I love my husband and my 2 year old daughter, I take good care of them and do everything I can for them. I’m just feeling defeated and alone.