Sleep makes it worse

Everybody keeps saying to prioritize rest to combat sleep deprivation, but the more sleep I get the worse my depression gets. It feels like being sleep deprived is the only reason I don't lose my mind everyday because I'm too pumped with adrenaline to get sad. I want to spend time with my partner but our sleep schedules never line up no matter how hard we try. Sometimes I just sit there and start sobbing about how lonely and bored I am. I'm not healed enough to clean and I have no interests, I'm difficult to mentally satisfy. I've been trying to get my friends to do more group calls where we just sit there and do our own thing, but everyone is always busy and sometimes I don't want to talk- I just want the company or to vent. I feel defeated.