You seem like a really, really strong person, honestly. The fact that you wrote this from a place of consideration for the feelings of your child's father is commendable. You can do this. Take care of your emotional and physical needs, too, reach out to others when you're feeling in need of support, just like you have proven to do now. You are not a bad mom, you are wonderful. It is clear that you will do what you can to care for others as well as yourself. <3 My inbox is open if you ever want someone to talk to and our community is here for you too. <3
I would go no Contact and focus on you
@Siera just messaged X
Forget your boyfriend for now. Focus on your and baby. One thing at a time 💛