I dreamed of this with my first baby, but now that I have it , I still have anxiety

After my first baby 2.5 years ago I struggled BAD with milk supply issues. Just when I thought I could build a stash, my milk production levels would drop so low I had to use the milk I just froze that week. Latching? Forget about it, Supplementing with formula? Sounded cool but my daughter would throw up and become so lethargic, I would cry and call the hospital and they would tell me nothing is wrong but I could clearly see something was. It was months before I figured out on my own that she had a dairy allergy then I could supplement with the RIGHT FORMULA and what a peace of mind that was. This go round I started off strong producing milk. On my best days producing more than 100oz a day. It got so crazy my hubby had to buy me a standalone freezer because I packed on the milk. I had to stop pumping the standard 3hour schedule and go 1x or maybe 2x a day per my doctors and lac consultatant to slow my milk down because I literally don't have the space for it . And this baby will be 8 weeks tomorrow. 2 completely different sides of the issues and my anxiety is still there on both. I only planned on doing a year of breastmilk so if I can stop producing early and use my stash that will be great for me. Leaking all day and waking up covered in milk is not as sexy as one might think.