Do not feel awful at all!! You are doing an amazing job and your baby is lucky to have you. Xxx
SHOUT - https://giveusashout.org it’s a totally free text service where you can talk/vent/get support any time day or night. all staff are volunteers but go through an intense training course! sending love xx
First of all, all mothers struggle at times and it certainly doesn't make you a bad person. I still struggle now and my daughter is 5. The fact that you are trying to get through this shows that you are good mother. I am not aware of any forums but feel free to message me.
It depends what it is I contacted Italk when I struggled it really helped me through x