Feeling empty

🫂 I'm so sorry you are going through this. PPD is really difficult and you are definitely not alone in this. It is always worth fighting for. I suffered from really bad PPD and PPA. I'm still on anxiety medication and I am also on ADHD medication. The PPD made my ADHD way worse so for the first time in 37 years I actually needed to be on medication for it. I had several depressive episodes similar to what you are describing and the PPA really fueld my fear. The best thing I ever did was to talk to my Dr. about it and to get set up with a psychiatrist and therapist. I was put in medication by the psychiatrist and the therapist helped to provide me with coping skills to work through the depression and anxiety. After being in meds and in therapy for a couple of weeks I noticed a vast improvement. Please talk to your Dr. about this and get help. There is no shame in it. You are so worth it ❤️

I’m so sorry you’re going through this! I can promise you it gets better I had really bad PPD and PPA with my second. I honestly thought my kids would have a better life without me in it! I struggle so much pretty much most of my son first 6 months of his life, I don’t remember much at all I was on survive mode. I got help tho and started medication and therapy it helped me so much. Nearly 3 years on and I’m so happy I over came my PPD. Please reach out to your family,friends,doctor. Don’t battle it alone. X

Thank you both for the supportive words. It really means so much to me to be heard. Today is better. I’m feeling a bit more hope. I think the hardest part for me is the health anxiety surrounding my baby. I’m constantly worried that any little thing he does is a symptom of some terrible disease or developmental issue that would completely derail our lives. Then I make the mistake of googling…. So that anxiety on top of the depression is like a boulder on my chest. But I really appreciate knowing there’s another side to this. There’s a way out

Also I have spoken to my doctor about meds and I will be starting soon.

Thank you for the encouragement

Well done for taking that step and reaching out for help that’s not easy either. I’m glad you’re feeling a little bit more hopeful. When you’re in that mind set it’s so hard to get out. I also struggled a lot with health anxiety with my son, always making sure he ate well and thought he was going to get ill if I didn’t. I still do struggle a little bit with that now. I’m also pregnant right now still early and I’m so anxious that something will go wrong! It’s so hard to control your thoughts. If you ever wanna chat feel free to send me a message 😊