I’m going through so much and I can’t get my meds yet.

I just need someone to talk to that’s not going to talk down on me. I can’t talk to my husband and I can’t talk to my family. So I have been struggling with axienty and depression for a while I knew I had axienty and depression when I was around 15 years old and it wasn’t all that bad then I wasn’t having panic attacks and I wasn’t having axienty attacks. After my husband and I had been married for 3 years I started get panic attacks all the time. I would start to feel like I can’t breathe then the axienty attacks would come in and I would start shaking really bad. Then I would sleep for days on end. Then I was put on meds and they were working until my medical insurance screwed up and I couldn’t afford to get them anymore. I have been off my meds for a while now. Maybe 3 months maybe longer. I can’t exactly know when the last time I took them was. But now my depression has came back. I don’t have the energy for anything I don’t want to do anything and I have done talked to my doctor. He got me started back on my meds but they are on hold until my insurance gets figured out. How do I function with depression how do I make myself want to do stuff