@Cindy I don’t, because I actually am a therapist, or I was before I had my son
I was a mental health case manager. I have a therapist. Therapist are still just people, they need some extra support sometimes too
Have you got anyone who you can turn to, to like just rant / talk lay everything out without feeling like you may be judged.. I went to doctors about 6months ago cause I felt pretty much the same & I was made to feel stupid for feeling the way I did, I reached out to a couple of friends & asked if I could rant to them with my problems / issues I was facing & I didn’t expect replies I just needed to get it off my chest & to this day o still do it, my inbox is always open if ever you wanna chat .. I’ve had depression on & off for 19years x
Do you have a therapist? I would reach out to them of I were you. If you don't or if you can't reach them I would text or call the crisis line. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. It truly sucks.