Marriage counseling

My husband and I just started. We’ve had three sessions so far, and I know that’s not much. So far I feel like it definitely helps us to communicate during sessions… but the time in between session have been unbearable. My husband will take small things I say during the session and mock me or use them against me. The things that have led me to want to go to counselor seemed to have amplified. If I could describe how I currently feel about him, it’s that I just don’t like him. I have love for him, but I don’t like him as a person right now. He has become mean, and I have resentment towards him because of it. I don’t remember the last time he made me feel nice or wanted. I keep fighting to get our spark back, but it’s really hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel because everything is just so bad right now. I’m miserable and sad. And I have very low self esteem because of all of this. I’m wondering if anyone has a similar story. The counselor suggested I become more active in mom groups so I can find others that are going through what I am.